Sue81

My head’s in a real mess at the moment. It’s not making me go off plan but I could be so much more on plan.
I’m gonna write it all down here so hopefully it might help to get it out.

Just before I started on my weight loss plan I got the result of my final exam and baring some paperwork I am now a qualified accountant.  This is supposed to be a good thing. I don’t ever have to sit another exam if I don’t want to. However all it seems to have done is messed with my head.

The problem is what do I do now.

I’ve worked for the same company for the past five years and when it is good it is great.
One thing that can really put a downer on things is the Finance Director. He makes a lot of false promises and I thought by now I’d have stopped listening but just occasionally he does something you think might just happen.

I’m due a pay rise for qualifying and while it isn’t official yet, the impression I’ve got is that it will be less than I was expecting. I’m living in the southwest of England and until now I’ve been unable to get a mortgage as house prices are really high compared to wages here. I tried last year but the bank weren’t playing. As I was qualifying the bank said that a letter from my company might help. So the Finance Director wrote a letter stating how much I could expect to be on when I qualified. The bank just turned round and said some back when you are earning X. Well now I’m qualified and I’m not going to be earning X.

I’m originally from the north of England where I can earn X as a qualified accountant and the house prices are much lower. My family is still up there and I only moved down here for the job.

The thing that is messing my head up is do I stay or do I go.

I’ve no ties down here except the job.  I’m not a standard accountant, I’ve become quite specialist and the company have just given me the go ahead to work on a project I could really run with if it’s not more false promises but if I can’t afford to get on the property ladder now I’ve qualified is it even worth it.

If I move back I don’t know how easy it will be to find a job doing what I love plus I got the hassle of trying to find a job when I’m living several hundred miles away and relocating. I should be able to earn better money and sort myself out a house.

I have no idea what to do.

Well I’ve weighed in and it’s a 6lb loss.

It’s been an up and down week but I’m happy with the 6lb loss. I know most of it is water weight (at the begining of the week I was even having to get up 2 or 3 times in the night!) and it won’t be like that every week but it’s a great start.

I’ve realised that right now I can’t cook food to store. If it is there I will eat it. I had a minor chilli incident mid-week but I’ll make sure that doesn’t happen again.

I’ve picked up a couple of companion guides to the GI diet on amazon marketplace (1p each bargain!) which contain recipes that I hope will be inspiring and stop me getting bored.

I braved the supermarket last night for the first time since starting this and all my favourites were calling to me but I resisted, just.

As I have now found a tape measure, I’ll make a record of my current measurements:
Waist 47in
Hips 51in
Thigh 32in
Bust 53in
Upper Arm 18in

I’m not gonna take my measurements every week but it’s something else to check if the weight doesn’t seem to be moving in the right direction.

 So I intend to do this week what I did last week and hope things carry on in the same way.

I’ve had a better day today, well a better day in terms of this, work was still a pain in the ****.

I ate just a little bit more porridge for breakfast this morning and it seemed to make all the difference. I’ve felt a lot more with it today, not as hungry, no weird blood sugar. It’s been good.

I made the most of freedom of vegetables tonight, with a stir fry. A chicken breast, a little pasta (to replace the giant portion of noodles I usually have) and a large portion of stir fry veggies with plenty of crunch. It filled the spot.

I’ve added one of my favourite all time recipes to the site. It’s a veggie pasta bake. It’s one I’ve adapted from an old weight watchers plan. I eat this even when I’m pigging out and don’t care about the weight it’s that good.  I’d recommend it for anyone who wants a meat free meal perhaps without noticing. I’ve even done this for everyone when we had a girls night in and two of them were vegetarian.

Just to say after some of the comments yesterday, I’m not a full blown diabetic yet but I do have some of the symptoms. I know I’ll probably end up diabetic as it’s in my family but losing the weight might delay it for a bit. The reason I’m doing the GI Diet is partly to try to control the symptoms. It’s no fun to feel like you are going to pass out especially if you happen to be driving!

Well today is day 3 and it’s been my first day at work since I started.

It’s not been a good day, my blood sugar levels have felt like they have been all over the place and that was the one thing this diet was supposed to fix. I’ve felt hungry all day and been ratty with everyone.

Work wise wasn’t great either, I’ve got three times the amount of work to do than I can cope with and my boss has sent my assistant to work in another department for two months and left me with no help.

On the plus side I haven’t eaten anything I shouldn’t in the past three days (with the exception of my fingernails) and I’ve managed to put in my 30 mins a day on Wii Sports.

I just wish I felt a bit better right now and didn’t want to devour every piece of food in the place (don’t worry I won’t!).

As an after thought does anyone know how to add before pics so they are in the right place on the blog?

Well I’ve made a start.

I weighed in this morning at 22st 3lbs (311lbs). I was going to take a note of my measurements but I can’t find a tape measure. I’ve set my first mini goal at 294lbs which will see me at 21st. As I’ve said before I want to take this a stone at a time.

I’ve just had my first proper breakfast in ages. A bowl of porridge, (which exploded all over the microwave, so more practice needed) an apple and a cup of decaf coffee. I’m off caffeine and alcohol for the duration (excluding special occasions).

I’m planning at least 30 mins on Wii Sports later on (mainly tennis and boxing), it may not be the worlds best exercise but it beats sitting on the couch all day which is the extent of my usual Saturday activity. I plan to kick in some more strenuous activity further down the line.

Finding this site has given me the impetus to start this process and hopefully will continue to give me motivation to continue.

Well today has been a day for finding out results.

I got my exam result and I passed, just managed the pass mark so I am now all but a qualified accountant (well except for having to get my experienced signed off but this is the final exam).

My new scales also turned up so now I know what I weigh for the first time in I can’t remember how long. The actual weigh in for tracking purposes will take place on Saturday morning but I had a quick look to check they were working and I weigh less than I thought. I’m just over 22st (308lbs) but I thought I might be a stone or two heavier.

This has certainly got me motivated.  I just doing a bit of online shopping so I am stocked up ready to go without being tempted whilst going round the supermarket.
Ok so over the next couple of days I’m going to be celebrating a bit plus making sure I don’t have any remaining sweet stuff in the house (mostly by eating it) but come Saturday I am raring to go.

I’ve added a picture to show what I look like now, it’s not great but it’s not easy taking a picture of yourself.

Well I’ve made a start by registering on here. I’m Sue, I’m 26 currently living in Exeter but originally from Leeds.

Let me just say that this is me starting to start as I intend to actually start my diet next week on Saturday 19th January. I have an exam result due on Thursday so nerves plus celebrating/commiserating would not be the best start to this process.

I don’t actually know how much I weigh at this point except that it is over 20 stones (280lbs) as the last time I attempted to weigh myself I was too heavy to register on the scales. I have invested in some scales that weigh up to 28 stones (396lbs) so I should know when they turn up.
I know I’ve got a significant amount to lose and just want to take it 1 stone at a time.

I’m going to go on the G.I. Diet as I have PCOS and it is supposed to be beneficial. I’ve tried it before and I certainly felt better on it and hopefully when I stick to it properly it will produce results.

My current lifestyle is very sedentary, I work in finance so spend most of my life at a desk and I never take any exercise. I intend to start slowly with parking the car further away and spending 30 minutes on wii sports whenever I can (if done enthusiastically it is certainly aerobic).
I might try some proper exercise once I’m on track with the diet.

My motivation behind making a real effort at this point is that I am going to Florida in November and a nine hour flight at this weight is going to be painful. I work for an airline and the last couple of times I’ve flown I’ve had to use a seatbelt extender and it’s embarrassing to have to ask for one.
I also don’t want to be told I can’t go on some of the rides in Orlando because I’m too big.
I want to try to lose what I can before November so I can enjoy my holiday.

My medical history hasn’t helped the situation over the years. I’m asthmatic. have been since I was little but it wasn’t properly diagnosed until I was 11. At the time they thought my problems were due to a type of hyperactivity so I was given a medicine (I thought it was cough medicine) which was designed to slow me down.
When asthma was finally diagnosed I was given steroid medication, never going to help with a weight condition. I finally stopped taking the steroids when I was 18.
I was 20 when I realised I had PCOS, this has made me insulin resistant.

I went on my first diet at 8 years old after being bullied at school and yo-yo dieted until I was 23 when I just stopped caring. That was never going to be the right thing to do but I’m ready to put the past behind me and I’m going to make a determined effort and get my life back on track.

I’m hoping that with the support of other people in the same situation I can make this work.

I’ll put up a before picture later when I have found my camera!