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I’ve just been giving my George Forman Grill an extra special clean as I have bought a particularly nice steak for dinner and I don’t want it to stick. It always gets a good clean after use but it can build up a bit of a coating after a while.

I’ve found the grill to be a great dieting tool. It’s quick, it’s easy and when you see how much fat comes out of even the leanest piece of meat, you know it is a good thing.

Mine actually dates from my pre-plan days and I tend to use it for chicken breasts, pieces of steak or other meat and in other times burgers and sausages (the first time you put a sausage in one, no matter how high a quality, it is usually a shock, to see just how much fat is in those things).

I was just wondering who out there has one of these or something similar and to get some ideas of what others do with them, so I can make a bit more use of mine.

I came back from my parents full of motivation but it didn’t stop me from making some poor food choices this week. I guess part of me had got used to eating rubbish again. Still managed to loss 2lbs. How bad was my eating before I started this if I don’t have the best week but still lose weight?
However last week is over and this week will be better.

I think part of the problem is that my head is in a mess again. I have a job interview on the 7th and I’m nervous already plus I was briefed on a major piece of work this week that will go on until October. If I was to resign shortly they would be thoroughly screwed, but they won’t realise that until I do.

I’ve been talking about trying to find a new job for a few years and having finally made that step I guess I’m just a little worried as to how everything will sort itself out, but it’s something I need to do.

Well I’m back from my parents now, luckily the flight wasn’t too bad.

I weighed in this morning two days later than usual and was shocked to see it was a loss of almost 1lb. I think that has proved to myself that one day when I’m finally where I need to be I can eat in a way which fits in with other people, without going overboard.

All in all I enjoyed my time wih my family and I enjoyed my food but as of tomorrow I am fully back on plan. Today will be almost there due to a lack of appropriate food in the house. Kinda forgot about that given it is a bank holiday weekend. Anyway I’m writing a shopping list and will stock up after work tomorrow.

I think this trip has made me more motivated and I know that the only reason this is working now is because I finally truely want it to. Trying to do this half-hearted just won’t work, it’s harder to get the weight off and much easier to put it back on. I just wish I was in this place mentally 10 years ago.

As a final note as a response to a comment on my last blog. Yes the tablets are working, I would recommend them to anyone with the same issue.

Unfortunately I lack the appropriate equipment here. So I will have to weigh in on Monday morning.

I’m still at my folks due to go back tomorrow afternoon. Currently there is a slight issue with that. It snowed last night, not as much as I’m sure some of you are used to but enough to have shut the local airport at the moment. I’m on standby, so getting back my prove tricky!

Things have been going okay over the last couple of days. I’ve done the best I can under the circumstances and I’ve tried to eat as healthily as possible.

I finally tried on the clothes I bought and they all fit, they are not even tight. So in certain circumstances I have dropped 2 sizes.

I had my hair done this morning. I hate sitting in front of a mirror for ages while someone messes with my hair but a friend of mine here is a hairdresser so I can catch up with her while I get it done.

Assuming I get back alright I will be back on it with a vengance tomorrow afternoon. I’m ready for it. I don’t feel good eating the way I have this week.

Gotta run, I’ll try to catch up with some blogs later

Well I’m still at my parents and to pick up where I left the last post. Dinner on Monday night was a tuna sandwich with some cherry tomatoes. The tuna was in oil but I drained it well. It was the best option available.

Yesterday was a free day but even then I didn’t go mad. We went to a carvery for lunch and had a couple of glasses of wine, which was very nice. Okay so the banoffee pie I had for dessert could not be described as healthy in any way but I did really enjoy it. Overall I ate a bit much which ruined the effect but at least now my eyes are capable of being bigger than my belly. I’m not sure that was possible before.

I went to the dog track with my dad in the evening and had a few pints of lager. I was tempted by a chip and gravy balm (fries and gravy in a breadroll) but to be honest I’d eaten so much at lunchtime I couldn’t really face it!

Had a walkout round a local town this morning and my mum has bought me some new clothes for my birthday, they are one to two sizes smaller than I have been wearing. I’m going to try them on later and hopefully I should fit into some of them now with the rest as an incentive. I also noticed that I was losing my jeans as I walked, think I need to find a belt.

We called in at the supermarket while we were out so I was able to put a few more suitable items in the trolley, along with the squash I have been drinking, so I was able to have a nice sandwich for lunch and we are having some pork for dinner so today is going okay.

I did buy a couple of mochalatte milk drinks for my bro and me. They have been on offer in the supermarket for three weeks, starring at me and I decided to go for it. One won’t kill me.

I think an Indian is in store for Friday night. I do love a good curry. Has anyone every had Bangla? It’s a type of Indian lager. Very appropriate with spicy food but also very strong.

I finally had confirmation of my job interview yesterday. It on the 7th April in London. i’m excited but nervous. Oh well it’s a bit off yet. I can worry nearer the time. I might even invest in a new suit. Gotta look the part.

My parents have gone to see Chitty, Chitty, Bang, Bang this afternoon, hence the extended internet access (though I did have to fight my bro for it). I’ll try to check in again later in the week.

Well I’m back at my parents and although they have the internet my access is limited so I’ll just be popping by now and again.

I flew back yesterday morning and wahey I didn’t need the seat belt extender. It was even almost comfortable to sit in the seat (thankfully it is only an hour flight). I got a dead leg but hey it’s been worse.

The food situation wasn’t good almost from the get go.  I have very little control over what I’m eating here and my mum is kinda trying her best but it is far from ideal.

Luch yesterday was steak with a jacket potato, which isn’t too bad. Dinner was a takeaway nan kebab with donner and chicken tikka. I’d gone upstairs to check my e-mail and when I came back down it had been ordered. My mum said she thought it would be better for me than a pizza or a curry. Well it might have been but not having a takeaway would be even better. Plus my parents seem to drink everynight and were trying to suggest better choices for me. In the end I had a shandy using one can of beer for the whole nights drink.

I had my porridge for breakfast. It was the one thing I insisted on. Today lunch was braising steak with mashed potato. It’s one of my favourite meals and not unhealthy in itself but it isn’t low GI and I’ve been falling asleep all afternoon. It has also rained all day so a walk was out.

They’ve gone out for a couple of hours to listen to a singer and they’ll get some food there so at least dinner is my choice. I just have to work out what I can eat in this place. Nothing is fresh and the freezer is full of ready meals but hey I’ll think of something.

Tomorrow is my 27th birthday and we are going out for lunch (I have no idea where) so it is going to be a guilt free day. We were due to go to my favourite Greek restaurant on Friday but that has been canned, so again I don’t know where we’ll end up.

Oh well, I can deal with the outcome of this week, next week but I’ll keep trying to keep things going as best I can.

I’ll try to blog again later in the week. It’s time I went to find dinner before they get back.

It’s a bit unusual for me to post twice in one day but well sometimes it’s necessary.

I’m not the most houseproud person in the world but every so often (usually driven by necessity) I have a big clean up. Today was one such day, due to the fact my landlady has someone coming round on Tuesday to value the flat so she can sort out a re-mortgage.
I’m sitting here now in a clean flat and wondering why I don’t keep it like this always. I know the answer it is because if it isn’t clean then people can’t come round.

I’ve lived in Exeter for over 5 years now for the first 18 months I lived in a shared house but since I’ve lived alone and in all that time no a single friend has been inside my flat. There is a reason for this, namely I have no friends. I don’t let people get close to me.

I found out this week that I have an interview with IBM, the job will allow me to move back up north. It has got me thinking, there is no-one here who will miss me if I went.

I find it difficult to believe anyone wants to spend time with me. If someone seems to like me or seems interested (let alone fancies me)I wonder what is wrong with them. I can’t accept that people feel any differently to me and I don’t like myself. I don’t respond well to people and I’m not good with physical contact, but I’m lonely.

This isn’t supposed to be a pity party just me facing facts. I’m starting to make changes in lots of areas in my life and I think this is one that also need work.

I’ve just had my usual Saturday morning weigh in and I’ve lost another pound. That’ll do nicely.

Tomorrow morning I fly back to my parents for the week and that is where things start to get a little tricky.
My aim for next week is to hopefully not gain any weight. I’m designating Tuesday (my birthday) and Friday (when we are actually celebrating my birthday) as free days, but the rest of the time I’m going to try as much as possible to stick to at least healthy eating if not my plan. On my birthday we are spending the night at the greyhound track. Not classy but lots of fun.

A small victory for me would be to not have to ask for a seatbelt extender on the plane, but that might be a little premature just yet.  Oh as an aside did anyone see last weeks project catwalk? Not the sort of show I usually watch but they had to design a new cabin crew uniform for the airline I work for. They had some very bizzare ideas.
 

Well I ate out for the first time this lunchtime and it went kinda okay.  I’d been on the website and decided what I was going to have before I went and that is what I ordered.

I’d let my grandparents know that I was dieting with a hope they might take that on board, that didn’t seem to be the case. My grandad ordered a mixed grill which is too much for him. He doesn’t like to see food go to waste and even though I asked him not to, he kept putting meat on my plate. I wasn’t strong enough not to eat it. I ate too much and didn’t exactly feel great afterwards. All through my life I’ve eaten whatever was put in front of me and now I’m ok if I fully control what I eat but I guess it’ll take more time before I’m able to deal with this kind of situation.

He asked me three times if I wanted a dessert and each time I said no and at least this time he didn’t just get one anyway. I also had a diet coke which seemed like a good option at the time but I’ve been off caffiene for 6 weeks and oh god, that was a shock to the system. My hand was shaking a bit and I had (and still have) a killer headache. I won’t be doing that again in a hurry.

I’ve lost 18lbs in 6 weeks, met my first mini-goal this week and I’m proud of what I’ve achieved. However I have been playing it safe.

Tomorrow for the first time since I started this I am going to eat out. My grandparents are in the area and I’m meeting them for lunch. In spite of the fact that they are both diabetic, they don’t really know the meaning of healthy eating and to them no meal is complete without a dessert. Last time we did this, after we had eaten my grandad went to get another drink and came back with treacle sponge and custard for both of us without asking! However I know where we are going so I am looking to see what I’ll eat and I’m sure I’ll be alright assuming he listens. and orders what I want, not what he thinks I want.

If this was going to be a one off it wouldn’t bother me as even if I wasn’t as good as I could be but on Sunday I’m going home to my parents for a week. Those of you who have read some of other blogs know I have issues with my parents and food. The reason I’m going back is that, well for one I need a break and getting physically away from work means they can’t call me in and it’s my birthday on Tuesday.

My parents live off take aways, frozen ready meals and eating out. My mum is a good cook but she taught me to cook in my early teens and my dad and brother prefered my cooking so I did most of it. She didn’t start again when I left and now doesn’t buy the food to cook with.
For my actual birthday we are going to a Greek restaurant for Metzes which is my choice and should be relatively healthy. I’ve asked that she get me some porridge (oatmeal) so I can eat breakfast as normal. For the rest of it I’ll have to do the best I can.
I can’t do my usual exercise regime due to lack of equipment (okay so it’s 30 mins on the wii but it’s more than I used to do). The only thing that might work in my favour is that my little brother is also home for the week. He is an extremely skinny little so and so who can eat whatever he wants and has a terrible diet but he has always been concerned with my weight (he doesn’t always express it in the most tactful manor!) so he’ll keep an eye on me and has promised to come for a walk with me everyday (if the weather improves, we have 80mph winds at the moment which are apparently from Canada).
I think I have to accept that I’m not going to lose next week. I’ll be happy if I don’t gain.

I’ve got the tv on whilst writing this, I’m watching a programme called Supersize vs Superskinny, where an overweight person and an underweight person swop diets for a week, to help them see what is wrong with their diet.  For the first time the Supersize is smaller than me and that is a bit depressing.

Oh well one day at a time as always.