Testing Times Ahead
I’ve lost 18lbs in 6 weeks, met my first mini-goal this week and I’m proud of what I’ve achieved. However I have been playing it safe.
Tomorrow for the first time since I started this I am going to eat out. My grandparents are in the area and I’m meeting them for lunch. In spite of the fact that they are both diabetic, they don’t really know the meaning of healthy eating and to them no meal is complete without a dessert. Last time we did this, after we had eaten my grandad went to get another drink and came back with treacle sponge and custard for both of us without asking! However I know where we are going so I am looking to see what I’ll eat and I’m sure I’ll be alright assuming he listens. and orders what I want, not what he thinks I want.
If this was going to be a one off it wouldn’t bother me as even if I wasn’t as good as I could be but on Sunday I’m going home to my parents for a week. Those of you who have read some of other blogs know I have issues with my parents and food. The reason I’m going back is that, well for one I need a break and getting physically away from work means they can’t call me in and it’s my birthday on Tuesday.
My parents live off take aways, frozen ready meals and eating out. My mum is a good cook but she taught me to cook in my early teens and my dad and brother prefered my cooking so I did most of it. She didn’t start again when I left and now doesn’t buy the food to cook with.
For my actual birthday we are going to a Greek restaurant for Metzes which is my choice and should be relatively healthy. I’ve asked that she get me some porridge (oatmeal) so I can eat breakfast as normal. For the rest of it I’ll have to do the best I can.
I can’t do my usual exercise regime due to lack of equipment (okay so it’s 30 mins on the wii but it’s more than I used to do). The only thing that might work in my favour is that my little brother is also home for the week. He is an extremely skinny little so and so who can eat whatever he wants and has a terrible diet but he has always been concerned with my weight (he doesn’t always express it in the most tactful manor!) so he’ll keep an eye on me and has promised to come for a walk with me everyday (if the weather improves, we have 80mph winds at the moment which are apparently from Canada).
I think I have to accept that I’m not going to lose next week. I’ll be happy if I don’t gain.
I’ve got the tv on whilst writing this, I’m watching a programme called Supersize vs Superskinny, where an overweight person and an underweight person swop diets for a week, to help them see what is wrong with their diet. For the first time the Supersize is smaller than me and that is a bit depressing.
Oh well one day at a time as always.
Stay strong! Don’t most of our eating problems start in our old homes? I am so proud of you and happy to read of your great progress. I would love to see that TV program! Darn! Remember we will be watching you. I love Greek food and Happy Birthday. No no no, do not be depressed….soon you will be smaller then the skinny one! Hugs, marge….I was reading about those strong winds, be careful.
I wanted to say that I’m proud of you for thinking about all this in advance! Just the fact you are worried and trying to find ways to workout with your brother show me that you are determined not to backslide on this trip. You can do it! Do your parents have internet? Feel free to check in with all of us and get some motivation. Have a happy birthday too:)
The tests are most certainly difficult but you are so ready for it it seems. look at what you have done so far and know that you can keep it up, even in those circumstances. you may slip a little, but get that exercise, buy groceries at your folks and cook if you have to (offer them that - they may LOVE it), and enjoy as much as you can. one day at a time like you said or even one meal at a time.