Sue81

I had a bit of an odd weekend my eating was good, I didn’t really go off plan at all but I couldn’t get motivated to do anything and I slept a lot. I think it was probably all the stress catching up with me and I’m feeling better today. I even got it together enough to make a sandwich for lunch AND take it to work.

My new assistant started today and it wasn’t too nerve racking for me, mainly because the poor bloke was really nervous himself. He’s very young and yes I know I’m only 27 but he’s 21 and just out of uni. It’s his first real job and he seemed a tad overwhelmed. He’s skinny as a rake as well! Oh well time will tell if he is any good at the job.

Over the weekend I joined the national phobics’ society to try to deal with my people issues. After I joined I was given the opportunity to take part in a study of the use of online resources for mental health problems, which was a bit of a shock as I guess I didn’t ever class myself as having a mental health problem.
My gran had mental health problems which I’ve never been told the full details about (inspite of asking but my dad doesn’t want to talk about it) she was sectioned for a quite a few years before I was born and had electric shock treatment. She was on medication for the rest of her life.
I know my anxiety is something different but it freaked me out a bit.

Once I’d stopped freaking I decided to sign up. I wanted to know what it was all about and see what help was on offer. I was accepted onto the study. I’ve got 6 weeks of email support from a support worker and I’ve been signed up to the living life to the full website, which is an online cognitive behaviour therapy tool. I hope the two may be able to help me to start sorting things out.

I’m due to go out to the cinema with the girls tomorrow night, we might be going out for something to eat before and there is always the snacks and popcorn when we are there but I will try to stay strong and stick to healthy eating. Now I just need to turn up and not cancel on them!